October 5, 2004
schizo
Crazy feelings...
When everyone gets all tense and pessimistic, I'm usually the one that acts calm. A cushion to those who get so frustrated and fall. I always have to be the optimist. When everyone's ready to frown, I have to smile for everyone.
Rawr... That's why it sort of frustrates me that I can't seem to let out any negative energy. When I'm pissed at something or someone, I don't know how to get mad. I don't even know how to show it. Instead, I force a smile on my face and tell everyone I'm OK.
But I'm not always OK. I'm not always that cheerful, perky girl.
*sigh*
I feel as if I'm a lousy friend. I hate feeling jealous of other people's attention. Why the heck am I feeling this? What in the world is wrong with me?
It's Tuesday. I'm taking a day off from anything work-related.
When everyone gets all tense and pessimistic, I'm usually the one that acts calm. A cushion to those who get so frustrated and fall. I always have to be the optimist. When everyone's ready to frown, I have to smile for everyone.
Rawr... That's why it sort of frustrates me that I can't seem to let out any negative energy. When I'm pissed at something or someone, I don't know how to get mad. I don't even know how to show it. Instead, I force a smile on my face and tell everyone I'm OK.
But I'm not always OK. I'm not always that cheerful, perky girl.
*sigh*
I feel as if I'm a lousy friend. I hate feeling jealous of other people's attention. Why the heck am I feeling this? What in the world is wrong with me?
It's Tuesday. I'm taking a day off from anything work-related.
Posted by tymeless on October 5, 2004 at 02:10 AM | 3 director's note(s)
sherbet
have a break.
tymeless
By the way, is it OK if I get my ticket from you or Jill na lang? I don't think I have any time except Tuesday night to drop by Dish kasi.