October 15, 2004
overlapping rehearsals
Went to the Atlantis office before rehearsal to look for a dark suit that Mike can wear for the show. Combing through the rack of costumes, I only found a bunch of black tuxedos from Dreamgirls, each labeled with the actor's name, and a navy blue suit thrown over one chair. I decided to take the largest of the four black tuxedos and the navy blue one to rehearsal. Hahaha, when Mike tried both on, that's when I found out that the navy blue suit was Aiza's when she played Dr. Scott in The Rocky Horror Show. Thank goodness Melvyn's black tuxedo fit him perfectly.
Grrr... forgot to bring my jacket, so I was freezing in my seat. Thank goodness Johnsy had asked to turn off the air conditioner after a while.
Joseph rehearsals. Just did the blocking of one scene. Hmmm... what do you guys say we work on that slow-mo part a bit more? Oh yeah, my apologies to Rain and Nicco for speaking without talking to you guys first. I just remembered that I'm under you guys pala, ehehehe. Sorry dears, my fault.
Detachment. What is detachment?
Developing and maintaining of a safe, emotional distance from someone whom you have previously given a lot of power to affect your emotional outlook on life.
Placing of all things in life into a healthy, rational perspective and recognizing that there is a need to back away from the uncontrollable and unchangeable realities of life.
Ability to exercise emotional self-protection and prevention so as not to experience greater emotional devastation from having hung on beyond a reasonable and rational point.
Hmmm... During the first staging of the show back when it was still a thesis project, I've maintained a safe distance from the cast. Didn't really get to bond or be chummy with them until after everything was all over. Right now, things became different. They became good friends of mine, so now I find it harder to be firm to them.
The downside of working with friends. Haaaay...
I'm disappointing myself because I feel like I'm losing authority. And I think it's affecting my performance in all aspects of the show, be it production-wise or artistic. When I start getting irritated, my brows start to knit together, but then it suddenly disappears and I end up blaming myself for everything. There's always this dialogue running in my brain. One side of me starts talking in my head and begins blaming other people, then suddenly the other side attacks and says that it was also my responsibilty. The latter side always wins.
Enough. I'm rambling again. I don't want to come to a point when I start saying that I'm beginning to get pissed and annoyed at people in the group just because of trivial things and other stuff.
Bah, I'm such a martyr.
Grrr... forgot to bring my jacket, so I was freezing in my seat. Thank goodness Johnsy had asked to turn off the air conditioner after a while.
Joseph rehearsals. Just did the blocking of one scene. Hmmm... what do you guys say we work on that slow-mo part a bit more? Oh yeah, my apologies to Rain and Nicco for speaking without talking to you guys first. I just remembered that I'm under you guys pala, ehehehe. Sorry dears, my fault.
Detachment. What is detachment?
Hmmm... During the first staging of the show back when it was still a thesis project, I've maintained a safe distance from the cast. Didn't really get to bond or be chummy with them until after everything was all over. Right now, things became different. They became good friends of mine, so now I find it harder to be firm to them.
The downside of working with friends. Haaaay...
I'm disappointing myself because I feel like I'm losing authority. And I think it's affecting my performance in all aspects of the show, be it production-wise or artistic. When I start getting irritated, my brows start to knit together, but then it suddenly disappears and I end up blaming myself for everything. There's always this dialogue running in my brain. One side of me starts talking in my head and begins blaming other people, then suddenly the other side attacks and says that it was also my responsibilty. The latter side always wins.
Enough. I'm rambling again. I don't want to come to a point when I start saying that I'm beginning to get pissed and annoyed at people in the group just because of trivial things and other stuff.
Bah, I'm such a martyr.
Posted by tymeless on October 15, 2004 at 01:13 AM | 1 director's note(s)