Peachy celebrated her birthday yesterday evening with her family, Tricia and I at Italianni's Libis. Peach and I met up at Shang, then got picked up by her mom, and met the rest at Italianni's.

Hahaha, when we got off the car to look for everyone, we knew Tricia was already there because we could hear her "Hello!" yards away.

Mmmm... pizza, pasta and salad. And bottomless iced tea. Thanks Peach! My only mistake was sitting next to her and Tricia because when these two get together, without fail, when they crack up, it's so contagious. The birthday girl's attempt to tell the story of a music video was so confusing that I had to paraphrase everything. And at least thrice, I was almost ready to spray my iced tea in Tricia's direction (she was sitting across from me) because I was trying to keep from laughing. It was fun, anyway.

This afternoon, I was tasked to deliver tickets to the main office of Ticketworld, and deliver complimentary tickets to one of our sponsors. It was all near our area that I could just take a jeep, but being the die-hard walker that I am, I opted to walk. So with umbrella in hand, I braved the hot sun after lunch. I was so surprised that I actually didn't get lost, hahaha. I used to get lost easily just walking around in Makati.

When I got to Ticketworld, I looked around at the posters they had advertising ongoing and upcoming shows. To my surprise, one of the shows that will run tomorrow featured my friend Jun as a guest tenor for a soprano's concert! And he never even told us about it! *bonk*

After delivering the tickets to the designated sponsor, I was off to Glorietta to use some Gloria Jeans Coffee gift certificates, wheee! Hahaha, Ate Sally told me to get white chocolate oreo chillers for everyone in the office (thank goodness there was only five of us) and added chocolate chip cookies for each.

I never really buy from Gloria Jeans. Ever since there was Strawberries and Cream Frappe and Coffee Jelly Frappe at Starbucks, I was loyal to that coffee shop. I only got to experience Gloria Jeans twice during our one-night show of The Guys. And that was the iced mocha, which Bobby always orders. Mmmm... white chocolate oreo was yummy! And no worries about caffeine, hahaha.

Finally! After several attempts to meet up, Iam and I finally managed to get together this evening. Met up at Powerbooks Live, then decided to go to Bizu, because she was told that the tiramisu there was to die for. But being south girls who have no sense of direction in Greenbelt, we had no idea where it was, hahahaha! But we managed to find it anyway. Iam got the tiramisu, and because I had enough chocolate from that afternoon after my walkathon (hahaha), I got the mango cheesecake. Mmmm... indulge!

Borrowed a DVD of Shaun of the Dead from Karlo yesterday. Has anyone seen this movie? I'm planning to watch it tonight.

Ever had that feeling that things just went on without you?

Yeah, that's what I'm feeling right now.

Don't get me wrong, I'm actually pretty content with where I am and what I'm doing today. During one quiet time alone late this afternoon, that feeling suddenly hit me. I know it sort of sounds conceited, but it just feels weird that in some places, everything's fine without me in it.

Oh well.

For the past several days, I've been listening to some outcasts in my music collection (hahaha!). And it made me want to keep listening to every track, and keep playing it over and over, and write down the drum notation.

Yes, you heard that right. Drum notation. For those of you who don't know, I took brief drumming lessons during the first semester of my senior year of high school. Hahaha, I was such a boyband teenybopper fanatic then, that I would play songs by Moffats and Moonpools and Caterpillars then, punctuated by Queen and songs recommended by my rocker teacher.

So anyway, everytime I listen to those tracks, I keep having these urges to write them down on paper. I'm not really a good drummer (heck, I don't even play Percussion Freak), I just want to try them out. Maybe one of these days, when I get a break, I might write down the notation of all those songs.

And... 1 and 2 and 3 and 4 and...

I got a text from Nana of Chalk Magazine today. Hahaha, people from this group are the only ones who call me by my real name.

So...hence the question... "Street smart or education?"

We'll find out this Sunday evening at 6pm.

Ate Sally and I planned to go to Divisoria today to check out the black shirts that Bobby wanted for our show. Oooh, change of collars for this production. Anyway, it's been a long time since I last went to Divisoria, and I didn't even commute there. I had to hitch a ride with Bea in her car.

Anyway, we went there after lunch, and man, the heat was sweltering. And of course, I already expected the crowds of crowds of people. We only visited 3 retail and wholesale stores to find the perfect place to buy our shirts. We bought one sample, got the shirt prices and the phone number of the owner, and off we went. We were supposed to find raincoats/jackets next, but we couldn't find anything that was good enough, so we decided to leave.

Went back to Makati and met up with Peachy and Tricia at SM. Hahaha, of course, when I called them up before I found them, I heard the same "hello" from both of them... in the same voice! My goodness, you girls are getting freaky, hahaha.

Anyway, when Tricia and her family settled at Cibo to eat, we said goodbye and Peach and I decided to eat at Hotshots. Afterwards, we went to Landmark because she wanted to buy clothes for school.

Holy kamote, the place was packed with shoppers because of the sale, but that didn't stop this young lady from going through the racks. And she was mighty contagious. The next minute I found myself buying clothes as well. My goodness, after looking at clothes, we looked at bags. Peachy had both her hands full that I had to carry her shirts for her! And after finding stuff she wanted, it was "elimination time," meaning considering what she really wanted to buy and what she can leave out. And when we got to the counter to pay for our clothes, we noticed that everything she bought matched! Everything was pink or went with the kind of pink the others had, hahaha.

After Landmark, we headed for National Bookstore, which was even more crowded because of the back-to-school rush. Rawr. Our last stop was SM so Peachy can buy an umbrella, hehehe.

Jillie mentioned a "surprise" last night that she and Peachy were cooking up. And here it is...

http://onebigocean.12.forumer.com

Things you enjoy, even when no one around you wants to go out and play. What lowers your stress/blood pressure/anxiety level? Make a list, post it on your journal... and then tag 5 friends and ask them to post it to theirs.


1. Reading a good book. I love how I always try to visualize what I'm reading.
2. Writing. It helps me think better. There are lots of times when I just think and want to write it down.
3. Sitting at a coffee shop. I love coffee jelly. And watching the people around me, just going about their lives. Just sitting there is quite an enjoyable experience, as I try to figure out what's going on in everyone's mind and what their story is.
4. Talking with a friend or two. Be it catching up on each others' news or just talking about anything under the sun, just letting the time pass is a good use of my time.
5. watching a play in the theater. Need I explain more?
6. Working backstage Wait, I think this sort of ups my anxiety level too, hahahaha! I just enjoy it because it's something I love doing.
7. Blogging. I've been blogging for 4 years now, and it's still very therapeutic for me.
8. chatting. Of course, if I don't get to talk much to some of my friends, it's still good to find them online.
9. Listening to my choice of music. Broadway, hahaha.
10. Talking to myself. It keeps me sane, even though everyone around me would think otherwise.


So who will I be tagging?

Rosa

Iam

Jill

Peachy

Maika

Just got home from QC about 15 minutes ago.

In case you're wondering (like Arlene did), the text I got from Nana was her asking me if I could represent Chalk Magazine at Y-Speak. Holy kamote, she first said that I was to join the debate. Then if I wasn't comfortable, I could just be part of the audience and just give my own opinion. I chose the 2nd option. So she then replied with the info I need (she wasn't sure about the topic; just something about street smarts versus education), and told me that one of the producers will just contact me.

The text came Sunday morning from Cathy, regarding venue and call time. That was it.

So off I went and when I got to the main entrance of ABS-CBN, I logged in and was directed to Studio 17 along with 2 other girls that arrived the same moment I did. But apparently, these girls were just there to be spectators, because they just went inside and straight to the audience area. Where was I supposed to go? I looked for Cathy, and found her at the door that we passed by. I introduced myself, and then she led me inside one of the dressing rooms. "Just wait for the make-up artist na lang." Huwat? Make-up artist? Hearing this, I held on to the door that she was about to close and told her that I wasn't really in the debate; I was just there to say my own take. She just said that it was the same thing and I was still to sit there and wait. Oh well.

There was this other girl with me in the dressing room, and she was scribbling away on a piece of paper. I guessed that she was one of the people in the debate. Cathy appeared again after a while and told us to transfer in the next dressing room. The girl and I were left alone again and got to talk. She introduced herself as Nicole and I had to introduce myself with my real name because that was how Cathy and Nana knew me. Then she told me the real discussion topic, which was "Diskarte o Diploma." Of course, I chose the diploma side, and I really happen to be on that side because I was representing a college magazine, hahaha. She, on the other hand, was on the diskarte side.

After a while, Tado and this other girl joined our dressing room, and Nicole's friend Angelica as well. Soon the room was also occupied by Alma Concepcion (with makeup artist in tow), her brother and another friend, Boom Boom of the Jaboom twins, and RJ from those Royal Tru Orange TVCs. Later, one of the PAs took Nicole and Tado to the other room because they were on the same side, and another PA briefed us on the flow of the debate. When he left, the rest of us started talking about what our real take on our side was. I was actually surprised that I was talking with them. Normally I would never open my mouth to even give my own opinion. But why on earth am I there when I was actually just going to be part of the audience? Oh well.

When it was almost time to start the show (which was being taped live), we all left the dressing room for the studio. I was told that I could sit anywhere, so I sat in the front behind Jaja, who would talk to members of the audience of each side. Angelica sat with RJ, Alma and Boom Boom, while Nicole was with Smokey Manoloto, Tado and Ketchup (who actually switched name tags with Smokey, hahaha).

Hahaha, to tell you the truth, I've never watched the show before, so I was actually amused. I wanted to duck away from the camera's view, but if I did, it would be so obvious, specially because the only vacant place I found to sit on was behind Jaja. Nyak. And speaking of which, she kept forgetting to introduce me as the Chalk correspondent, even though it was written on the manila paper and the PA repeatedly reminded her. But it was OK. The guy on the diskarte side that I got paired with was also from my school, hahaha! And somewhere in the middle of what I was saying during my turn, the audience had already started applauding that I thought I was being drowned by the sound. Then I realized that I was still holding the mic, hahahahaha.

I didn't know that the time could fly by so fast. The show was only for an hour, but I didn't realize it until they announced that the final words were about to be said. I was actually having fun listening to the debate. The only annoying thing was that the two guys next to me were making these snide comments that they were becoming annoying, and kept insisting that they were really siding with the opposing side. Oh well.

After the show, I left the studio and went to the Ilacads. Hung out with Tita Sherbs and Jillie in the master bedroom, just watching TV and talking. Aw, I missed chilling out at their place. And talking with them. Hahaha, Jill, loka talaga kayo mag-greet. Anyway, hope to see y'all on Tuesday night at Dish!

Getting sleepy. I have lots to do starting in the morning. G'night, world.

OK, people, you can retract your claws. It's just a simple tag. Whoever it is, God bless you. I'm not really affected by a simple negative comment. For those who also tagged in my defense, thank you, but I don't really want to flood my tagboard with hate messages, so I erased them, save for that one, hehehe. Back to all those trivial one liners who visit my blog.

I can be such the pacifist, sometimes, hahaha.

But isn't it funny how a simple thing can make people react? Kinda reminds me of some particular instances. A simple compliment is funny. When someone gives this compliment to someone, everyone would follow suit. But the most hilarious is when someone gives a nasty comment, no matter how simple or long it may be. People would go out of their way to react.

Hmmm... anyone familiar with these situations?

I'd give you guys the same advise Tita Sherbet gave me. If you don't react, there's no fuss. Actually, the culprit would get annoyed if they don't get noticed, hahaha.

My goodness, I've taken a quick road trip the whole day. The first thing on my agenda was to go with Kuya Boni to the pick up a package somewhere near the domestic airport. Jeez, the examiner was late so we had to wait for ages. The only time I cracked up was when the lady there thought I was part of the show's cast because Kuya Boni mentioned I was part of the show. Nyak.

Then in the afternoon, we had to go pick up computers that were needed for the setup. Haaaay, that was the worst. It took longer than the morning trip because of the traffic jams we ran into and an even longer wait because the hard drive of the laptop was being replaced and they had to install some programs into it that was needed. The outcome was annoying by the time we had delivered the computers to the theater.

By the time we returned to the office, it was already half past seven in the evening. Rawr.

I wanted to drop by the sitzprobe, but I ended up just hanging out at Madison.

Then I started thinking again.

A couple of people said that I changed. I don't know if it was a bad thing. Maybe different. "Didn't you realize kanina how much you changed?" I don't know.

Then there go my thoughts again. That feeling that things were actually going fine without you. Everything went on and you feel like you missed a lot.

I miss my 3wayjabber guys, and how we spend hours talking until the wee hours. The things we talk about begin with something simple, something trivial, and end up with this uber deep conversation. Sitting somewhere and talking with these guys that I consider my younger brothers is never dull. I love their way of thinking. And my baby bro is finally spoken for, hahaha.

I miss Rain's "Eto lang yung sa akin ha." His straightforward opinons may be stubborn at times, but he has good points and mean well. Sometimes his segueys tend to stray away, but it's amusing to listen to his stories.

I miss Mish's undecided mind, and how we end our talks with a million extensions. There was never a time that we saw each other and had lots of stories to share.

I miss Nikki's evolving laughter and how our conversations get so ironic with all her "Hindi, pero..." Pooh-pooh, where are you?

OK, enough.

I just got this email. A simple response, with a simple compliment. And to think I was a chicken earlier. But I must learn not to speak too soon. Ahehehe.

Then my mind begins to drift to all that stuff I was thinking about earlier. Rawr, I guess I need to sleep. Darn that coffee jelly.

It's supposedly a holiday today, and I'm in Makati right now. Yes, I went to work. Because by tomorrow, we'll be working in the office and at the Meralco theater.

Well, considering it is a "holiday" today, we didn't have as much calls like we always do during regular days. But of course, there are still the handful that assume we're open even on Sundays. Hahaha, I checked all the calls in the caller ID that we got from yesterday and there was still a lot.

So anyway, tomorrow, I leave the office early and go to Meralco, then set up at the lobby. I doubt that I even get to watch the evening's DTR. We'll see.

Hahaha, last Saturday, Ate Sally and I stayed in the office until 2 in the afternoon, then we went to G4 to take advatage of our Gloria Jeans GCs, hehehe. Got GJ chillers to match the food we decided to eat at Mexicali (which didn't really match at all, hahaha). Then we went to Guess so she can check out some jeans she could get from the GCs she got from Bobby. After that, we went to the Hub so she can finally get her new phone.

Ate Sally had to go then, so I went around the mall on my own, window shopping. Well, one thing in particular that I was looking for was a new black jacket I can wear to the theater. I told myself that if I found one that I can afford that day, I'll buy it. But if it's more expensive than my day's budget, it wasn't meant to be. After 3 floors and a gazillion stores, I found one that's really beautiful, but it was too big for me. I was told by the saleslady that they have a another one in a smaller size in another outlet in another floor, so I had to go to the other side of the mall to find it. And it fit perfectly. Rawr, it wasn't meant to be, because I forgot that I didn't have enough money with me then.

Man, I can't wait for the show to finally open.

Oooh, I saw this documentary on the recording of The Producers soundtrack. In between songs, Mel Brooks narrated the story, and there were a bunch of cuts showing the artists goofing off and stuff. I never realized that Matthew Broderick was cute, hahaha, specially when he sings. Ernest? Got a bootleg of this one? Hahahahaha!

Something to ponder about...
There's a fine line between being close to someone and claiming to be close to someone. "Feeling close," as other people would say. Some people would know the difference, some wouldn't.

I'm off to have dinner. I miss Tokyo Tokyo. Maybe I'll buy some food to go and eat it at home with my 'rents. But my mom wouldn't like it. Then again, there's always Dad who'll eat anything, hahaha.

This "non-holiday" at work is making me talk of too trivial stuff, ahehehe. Ciao for now.

After more than a week's hiatus, I'm back online. My PC's still out, so I'm back at the Internet cafe. And I've got a long update that I'm too lazy to cut, so I'm apologizing in advance if you have to wade just reading through this entry.

Tuesday, June 14

Meralco night. The first day that we had to go to the theater after work. It was called "Meralco night" because all the DTR was open exclusively to all Meralco employees. In the meantime, Ate Sally, Miss Tinggay and I were at the lobby setting up all the banners and standees of the sponsors. We didn't even bother to watch the show, hahaha. After we were done, we just sat on the long sofas to take a breather then left.


Wednesday, June 15

Press preview night. Our first actual show night. My goodness, it was crazy. Ate Sally, Miss Tinggay and I settled at the lobby and had to juggle and handle all these tickets we had with us, all left by sponsors and artists for their guests to claim. My golly. We didn't have programs or any souvenirs then, so when the show began, we first hung out in the lobby. When I went to the ladies room for a moment, when I came back, both Ate Sally and Miss Tinggay had disappeared. Kuya Boni then said that they both went inside the theater to watch the show. So I followed them inside.

The tavern scene with Gaston had just began when I got inside. Hahaha, it was the first time I saw everyone in full costume, complete with all those character wigs. I couldn't help but laugh when I saw Topper and David donning those black bob wigs from Dreamgirls. But Calvin was hilarious as Gaston. The role really did fit him.

KC played Belle that night, and her approach as the role was pretty different. If the Belle in the Disney cartoon was strong-willed, her Belle was more firm. To quote myself, I called her more matapang in the sense that when the Beast was insisting she dine with him, she was more persistent in her ways.

The "Be Our Guest" scene was pretty cool. But I have to admit, I sort of expected a lot about this show that I wasn't really feeling that "huwaw". But it was good. The plates looked like Vegas showgirls, but it was so amusing how they entered and the plates were all spinning.

I left before Jett's rendition of the Beast's "If I Can't Love Her" to return to my post at the lobby, but I went back inside with Ate Sally and Miss Tinggay after intermission. So I got to watch the entire Act 2, showing how Belle started to have a soft spot for the Beast. I actually liked the "It's pink" dress (hahahaha) that Belle wore for "Something There". And when it was time for "Beauty and the Beast", everyone started anticipating something. When KC entered in that infamous yellow ball gown, I could hear whispers all around. It was a simple waltz, but Pinky's rendition of the song was remarkable.

What I enjoyed the most was "Change In Me", the newest song inserted in the musical. I wish I could borrow Bobby's CD of Susan Egan just for that song. I don't think I want to own just KC's interpretation of it.

Then there was the fight between Gaston and the Beast. They had this flying thing rigged for both Calvin and Jett and I just had to watch carefully how Calvin got lifted because of his huge frame, hahahaha. I was particularly amused at how the audience reacted when the rose's last petal fell. And then of course, the famous transformation. Cherie Gil had once told us that she watched the musical on Broadway and couldn't figure out how the Beast transformed into the Prince when he was just flying and spinning in the air. For this one, from my seat near the back of the orchestra, I could see Jett changing under the cape. It was only the press night, so I guess it was still a bit messy, but it was doable.

But my goodness, his wig as the Prince looked bad. Everyone said so. But who are we to argue with the director?


Thursday, June 16

Opening night. One wrong thing was that we forgot the bell that signals that the show will start in 5 minutes. Rawr. Oh well.

Hmmm... my mind suddenly went blank. What happened on this night? Nothing much, really. We just had to lug all these gift bags to Meralco for all the cast and crew, and then we had other stuff with us, like the T-shirts and mousepads that we were to sell. The souvenir program hadn't come out yet because the printer got delayed, rawr.


Friday, June 17

I didn't really watch the show then, hahaha. During Act 1, we retreated to the cafeteria downstairs with the food we got from one of our sponsors. And I suddenly decided to sample all of the flavors of the drinks Wetzel's Pretzels were selling per day. On opening night it was kiwi strawberry. On this particular day it was bubble gum.

It seemed that we keep pigging out at the lobby, hahahaha! Probably because there was nothing else to do.

Oh yeah, the souvenir programs had arrived, but the printer got it all wrong, rawr. But we still got to sell a whole bunch though. But we still need to have those programs fixed.


Saturday, June 18

The first day of the run where we have 2 shows. It was also Karel's first show during the matinee (KC had performed in the previous shows). I listened to her sing while I was just sitting in the lobby, then peered in the theater for a while, and ended up staying, hahaha. I got to see the scene with Belle and Gaston in "Me" until a few bars of "If I Can't Love Her".

Hmmm... after that show, I didn't really want to compare the two girls who played Belle. KC has some strong points and Karel has her own. And they both have different approaches to the character. And then there was that review in the paper, saying that KC and Jett didn't have chemistry. Hahaha, figures. Heck, both girls are half his age!

Then there are the usual people that give trouble during shows. People insisting to let their kids in even when they're below the age limit. I'm sorry, people, but for this show, we don't allow kids under 5 years old, OK? Don't give any excuses like the kid can understand it already or they're well behaved. We're just following rules. Actually, the Meralco theater only allows kids 7 and above, but we asked to lower it to 5, so don't push your luck. Some kids can get frightened of the Beast, hahaha. Like Bobby's little nephew who got to check out a rehearsal.

Plus there was this one foreigner guy who gave one of the ushers a lot of trouble, first during Act 1, and made another scene at the end of Act 1. Holy kamote. Hassle. So we all told ourselves to expect the unexpected.


Sunday, June 19

Boy, was I relieved it was just a matinee show yesterday. But of course, expect the unexpected. At the very beginning, this little girl suddenly started screaming and crying even before she entered the theater. So there, people, this is one reason why we don't allow kids below the age limit or even close to the age limit. This girl is already 5 years old, and she got scared of the Beast even before she saw it. Her dad ended up staying in the lobby during all of Act 1 trying to calm her down.


Anyway.

The cast and crew get a day off from today until Sunday. I have to work 7 days a week. But at least there's overtime pay to look forward to, hahaha.

I gotta go for now. Time to wrap up and go home to get some sleep.

This post is supposed to be about my comments on what I've seen so far in Beauty and The Beast. I'm supposed to watch a bit every show so I can finally put everything together, as well as the show pictures Bobby wanted me to compile in an album.

But I've gotten to do a lot more thinking these days. And it was quiet a surprise because of the many things we have to do, I can't seem to find the time to even think.

I've been sort of anti-social lately, hahaha, but I've been doing a lot of observing with the people I know. Friends, acquaintances, and others.

Right now, I don't know whether some people are being "feeling close" or not. I've become a very suspicious and paranoid person, ahahaha. Anyway, so there. Some people approach and be really friendly, and then before I know it, they're already backstabbing, talking about me behind my back for their own benefit. Why do people do that, anyway? They get close to you enough for you to trust them with a whole lot, and then they use parts of what they know about you for something else. Maybe to get on other people's good side or what, I don't know.

I find that rather pathetic. User-friendly. What in the world do you get from that? True, you get something in return. But do you really think it's worth risking your friendship with someone? Jeez.

I actually miss being with people who are worth being with. If they have a problem with you, they tell it to you like it is. Instead of those other people who rant and talk about you behind your back.

And then like I said, there are the other people who are "feeling close." Hahahaha, 'nuff said. I repeat my question earlier. What do you get from that aside from the brief looks of admiration and/or envy of other people?

Or maybe I'm just feeling cranky today. I'm hungry, let's eat. Hahaha.

I'm back once again for my weekly update, hahaha.

So the 2nd week of Beauty and the Beast is finally over. 3 more to go.

It was actually a nice surprise to see unexpected people turn up at the theater. What do I mean by unexpected, you ask? Well, take for example, at least 2 of my old high school classmates had come to watch the show this week on two separate occasions. And I never expected they would be the type to be found in the theater, hahaha.

Per usual, I spend most of my time in the lobby during the shows, sometimes peeking inside to check out my favorite scenes or scenes I haven't seen yet (starting from the Prologue up until before "Me"). Hahaha, once again, just talking and eating in the lobby, but now I bring a book with me to pass the time. Hahaha, just last Saturday, Mr. C had noticed me reading, and gave me a new book to read (Thanks, Sir Ed!), so I have that other book lined up next.

Last Saturday (or was it Friday? I keep forgetting what day of the week it is), I went backstage to deliver something to Bea. I found Jett outside the artists entrance, half-dressed in his costume with prosthetics on (minus the Beast wig). He said hi, and told me that he hardly sees me. Hahahaha, Jett, that's because I don't work backstage for this production; I stay at the front-of-house. I also added that I miss being backstage. After those words had left my mouth, I realized how true that feeling was. I miss the crazy action backstage. How everything runs like clockwork. Watching the cast do playtime onstage. The crazy things you happen to hear from the other dressing rooms (even though I hear the craziest things already in the office).

I wonder if they'll let me work backstage for next year's Aida.

KC's family came to watch the show yesterday. And not just the immediate family, mind you. Even the senator's parents were there and others as well. And little Frankie was so adorable when she stepped into the lobby. She was dressed in this little yellow gown that was a replica of what her older sister wears in the show.

Shoutouts to Lye, Ting, Anna, Rain, Tricia and Marion. Thanks for watching the show!

Oh yeah, while I'm still doing shoutouts, here's another one for Teenee the wineglass!

I visited some friends early last week, and did my usual drama of feeling out of place, but realized that nothing much has changed, but some people had definitely moved on. Two days after that, I got a text from Rain, saying how he felt that things were different now. Hahaha, we were thinking the same thing that very week.

Then I got to talk to Nikki on the phone last night. She mentioned the time that I said that I always happen to be with different groups of friends every year, and she admitted that she got kinda annoyed with what I said then. Actually, when I said that before, that was the time that I realized that I've been learning to how to deal with withdrawal, and accepted how things will happen. And then she said that she hoped that this would be a first for me to stay with some friends longer than usual. Heck, doncha worry, Nikki, I'd miss you too much. The rest too, but seeing how they have seemed to move on, I'm not too sure.

Hahahaha, by the way, aside from that, Nikki and I had the most interesting conversation last night. More to come tomorrow, I hope.

I'm getting hungry. Again. Hahahaha, Ate Sally and I have been food-tripping all day. We got 3 boxes of pizza earlier at the office and devoured 2 boxes with Kuya Boni, then Ate Alona baked us brownies. Yum. But I'm getting fatter, rawr. I weighed myself last Thursday when we weighed the picture frame that we had to FedEx, and I gained weight. And getting extra boxes of doughnuts every week isn't helping a bit. After this show's run, when Ate Sally takes her leave, I'll return to my old eating habits.

I'm out for now. Til the next update.

Hahaha, what a lousy title.

Anyway, in my last entry, I had this drama about feeling out of place.

I realized that that feeling always came when some of my friends get all chatty over something I missed out on and can't relate to. And then I feel as if I hardly know those people anymore.

These past few months, I have 3 friends who recently got boyfriends/girlfriends. It's not that I didn't want them to get involved with anyone; I just felt that their commitment with those people happened too fast. But of course, to each his own.

One of these friends once talked about their now-significant other so often before they hooked up. That friend became out of touch for a while, but each time we talked and got together, it was as if it was a day like any other day we used to spend together. As if nothing really changed.

I sort of lost touch with this other friend as well over the summer. And when I met up with that friend, suddenly there was the new significant other, hooked up just after a couple of weeks. Huwaw. That was fast. I wasn't told much about how they got together; it just happened in a snap.

And finally there's this other friend. Losing touch with this one was different. I cut myself off for a year, and when we got together again, there was a lot that friend said. A complicated person who vowed not to hook up with anyone with anytime soon. In love with this person that was talked about often, and suddenly hooked up... but with a different person. That was even crazier.

These three people were three friends I enjoy talking to. I was closest to the 2nd person, then the 1st, then the 3rd. Just very recently got to talk to the 1st and 2nd person, and because we hung out and talked, it was as if no time had actually passed. But the 3rd person is still pretty hard to understand. It seems as if when that person hooks up with someone, there's a tendency to be hard to keep in touch. Oh well.

Weird post. I'm out for now.