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Exactly 12:00

Ever had that jealous feeling that you can't seem to figure out? I have that feeling right now?

It was the same as the time Mansour wanted my aunt as a wife.
Same as the time when I heard my org partner had found himself a girlfriend from the other org next to us.
When a close friend had fessed up that he likes this certain girl.
But it sure didn’t feel like the time when my ex had a new girlfriend of his own. (No offense, Ari, ahehehe.)

So I guess it's not what you think at all.
I guess it's because I've grown to love to people so much that I don't want to let go of them. I've started to care so much that I've sort of become possessive, to keep them from going though anything that might hurt them.

But how come I didn't feel like this when my brother had introduced me to Ate Maui? Probably because she was such an open book right from the start that I knew that she'd be perfect.

So I guess for a pseudo brother or sister, I'm particular with the people they go with unless I know whom they're hooking up with. I just miss spending time and talking to them like before. To quote from Merrily We Roll Along, "Make it like it was."

Bwahahaha. Lotsa people come to mind in these situations, and I wonder who all these people are? That's for me to know and for all of you to find out.

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I usually come home right after work because it gets really lonely wandering around Greenbelt and Glorietta all by my lonesome. Just this Monday, I was holed up in my room with the television on, and a wave of loneliness washed over me. I've gotten so used to hanging out with friends almost every evening until the wee hours of morning that I kept wishing that I was still with them. Hahaha, I guess this is the perfect time to say Nicco and Mish's infamous "Ibalik ang kahapon."

Jealousy. Loneliness.
Two emotions that I totally loathe.
And it's been sporadically visiting me by the ton.

I'll just be in a random coffee shop after office hours with my trusty notepad for the nest few days. Drop me a line if you want. Who knows, I could be in your area.

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There really is such a thing as karma. I used to be so dense ever since high school, and still was in college. And now I found people who can be as dense as I am. Now I know how it feels like to be dismissed or not acknowledged even over the simplest of things. No wonder I've been having a lot of brooding moments. No wonder "nakakapagod magtampo," in the words of Nikki, hahaha.


Oh, the "thinks" you can think, like the Cat in the Hat had said.

I've been having too much time with myself to think.

Ignore me. I think I'm having an off-day, hahaha.