Written January 11, 2006, 23:30

I feel so lost... Like I don't belong anywhere. I hate it.

"Don't bother doing ___ if you're just going to ___."

Oh, I could say that to a lot of people right now in a lot of different ways. Some are just people I meet on the street, some are acquaintances, and surprisingly, just now, some of them are friends.

I hardly ever spend my time brooding. I've been that way for years. But it's happening pretty often lately.

It seems as if everything's changing too much and too fast for me to keep up that everyone has left me behind.

I want to get away. Away from everyone and everything familiar. Just so I could be the only change I'm aware of.

As I've said to some of you before, I'll just make my own plans.

I guess listening to Seussical this week was already a sign. Alone in the universe. I feel like one of the characters that suddenly felt like nobodys.


Written January 12, 2006, 23:15

I have this habit of brooding then acting as if "past is past" so it looks like everything's all right even though I'm not completely over it.

I noticed how plastic I can be just to make my friends content. I feel like such an evil person.

Anyway, that's what I was like today, hehehe. After work, went to Timezone to pour out some frustrations on House of the Dead, Mario Kart and Percussion Master. Then met up with Nikki so we can watch Narnia together.

Narnia... All throughout the film, I would remember what I had read a million times from my copy of The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe. Sometimes I would remember what it was like in the musical.

And when I recalled the story's events based on the musical, I would find myself chuckling to myself, recounting everything that had happened in this particular scene, who was doing what role, stuff like that. Tito Audie and Meynard as Aslan. Tita Menchu and Tita Carla as the Witch. Franco and Paolo as Peter, Camille, Crisel and Tanya as Susan, Sam and Inaki as Edmund, Moreen and Alexa as Lucy.

Ever since I first read the book, I loved the chemistry between Lucy and Mr. Tumnus. In the movie, I adored Mr. Tumnus' eyes, hahaha! And Susan was really as stubborn as I had imagined, being too cautious of everything. (It's no wonder why she didn't survive the 7th book in the Chronicles.) Lucy was adorable for being so determined and always game. Those instances with her knife were pretty hilarious! Plus her one-liner comebacks were pretty witty.

Too bad they didn't show how the snow had melted into the spring. In both the book and in the musical, they both showed how they enjoyed seeing the spring come in. ("It's a miracle... called Spring!" HAHAHAHAHA!) Darn it, I can still remember myself pulling, tugging and struggling with the "snow" underneath that darn revolve in the Meralco theater along with Carmen and the rest of the crew. That was where I got myself re-acquainted with Gilbert (paging Chevy!), repeatedly got whipped in the eye with a bird-tail, and being caught under an avalanche of the "snow" due to broken rope.

My golly, the element of surprise was always with the wolves. From their first appearance right on up to before Peter's encounter with them. Hahaha, Nikki, who had already seen the film once, still yelped and jumped in her seat during those moments.

I loved the film. I want to watch it again. Maybe this weekend.