It's hard to pretend that things are all right. That things are fine and dandy, and "normal." I never realized how hard it is to act natural, when things get awkward.

Oh shut up, Hogi. Consider this an "actor's challenge."

"Actor's nightmare" is more like it, hahaha. Thanks for the term, Sir Jaime.

To repeat what I had told Teena, if anyone had given me a hug today, I probably would've burst into tears for some reason that I can't seem to define.

Just looking at the past makes me think and remember everything all over again, and miss it. And in front of everyone, I have to paste a smile on my face to show that I'm "OK." And as a result, I end up shirking a few duties. And some people are of no help at all.

By the time I arrived home this evening, I wanted to crash. I felt so tired and lonely.

Again, Hogi. Shut up. "Conquer it!"

Those quotable quotes our actors had scribbled in the margins of their scripts seem to have come in handy.

My headache's gone, but my head's spinning. I need to lie down.