Just thinking, that's all.
I just realized that the last time I posted a blog about what I'm really
thinking and feeling felt like 3 lifetimes ago. I remember that I only
reserved those posts for private entries, so I'm more known for writing
cryptic things when I write a public entries about what I think and
feel.
I guess I do so because blogging has become more commercial, and
personal posts only spark the interests of the people who personally
know the blogger. I don't know. Hence, my cryptic posts.
But then again, cryptic posts are useless when you need solicited or
unsolicited advice, or for people to empathize with you. Though I'm not
really keen on the latter because it just... well, it just too much of a
weak girly thing. (Blame it on my reading "Act Like a Lady, Think Like a
Man".)
Anyway, so an old flame and I have been pretty chummy as usual, and it's
not really a surprise. But I do have a feeling that sometime soon,
we're going to have another argument, tampuhan, or whatever you may call
it. It's like a cycle with a weird pattern ever since we stopped seeing
each other.
Plus it's weird. I have a feeling he still talks about me with other
people, and I don't even know what about. A couple of nights ago, I
found that he tagged a girl in one of my most recent (and one of the
prettier, hahaha) profile photos, and as quickly as it happened, the tag
disappeared. He told me in a brief chat that he wanted to show it to
someone.
Huh?
The last time he did so, he tagged another girl (a girl he was starting
to like) in one of our old couple photos (from one of my birthdays), to
show her what his ex looked like.
Anyway, I found it interesting and funny that I'm still one of his
topics of conversation. But why talk about me, of all people, right?
Anyone?
OK, enough about that. This is what I get for blogging too early in the morning. Now for some hodgepodge.
My laptop suddenly sort of crashed yesterday. Darn it. So after a deep
breath and saving what meager parts of my files that I could, the whole
system was completely reformatted. Sigh. I lost all my music, half of my
photos and other miscellaneous stuff.
I can't wait for Noli Me Tangere rehearsals to start on Tuesday. The stage management will be meeting
later so it makes me more anxious and excited. I haven't had any
backstage action in a while, so I need to brush up on my SM skills.
And now, off to work I go.